Repost: Original fiction

I arrive at her home one minute early and kneel at her door until exactly 7pm. The door opens and I crawl into the foyer with my eyes to the floor. She steps barefoot in front of me and await her tender voice..."Clean them...bitch"I lower my face until my tongue begins bathing her toes...instep...ankles...back to her toes."That's enough, get started" she saysI crawl to the kitchen, where I pour her a glass of wine and then slowly crawl to the living room where she has made herself comfortable on the sofa. I offer her the wine, which she takes and raises it too her lips, taking a big sip.She swirls it in her mouth, enjoying the bitterness and says, "Bring your face up to me bitch" which I do. She leans in and kisses me on the lips...first gentle...then grabs me by the back of the head and spits the wine into my mouth. "Continue your chores"I crawl back into the kitchen, stand, and begin tackling the stack of dirty dishes that have been left for me. I wash them, dry them, and then wash down the countertop and sweep the floor. Now finished with that task I crawl back to the living room. She holds out her glass, which I take and crawl back to the kitchen, refill, and return to her.Her feet up on the ottoman, she speaks again, "Present yourself and get to work" She prefers I undress slowly and fold each piece of clothing neatly on the floor, which I do. Mistress greatly enjoys my adeptness at foot massages and I begin to pamper her feet exactly the way she likes.It's now almost 8 o'clock. I slide the ottoman out of the way and lay on my back with my head on the floor in front of the sofa...arms straight out. She stretches out my arms and binds my wrists to the legs of the sofa...my feet pointing towards the television. She stands over me and removes her jeans and shirt tossing them away...lowers herself to sit on my stomach facing me and reaches for a small bag next to the sofa.Inside the bag, she removes 2 nipple clamps and places one each on my nipples. It's a mild pain, but instantly causes me to get an erection. She slides off of me...grabs my penis tightly and jerks me off into her now empty wineglass, making sure every drop makes it into the glass. I have a worthless penis, that although large in size, comes almost immediately. She enjoys making fun of it and how useless it is...not being able to last long enough to satisfy anyone.At this point, her show is about to begin, so she places a pillow on either side of my head and moves to straddle my face in a fashion that my nose is at her anus and her female garden is over my mouth. I hear the TV being turned on...I feel her tug on my clamps...removing them and replacing them again causing a sharp pain.Through the flesh of her thighs pressed against my ears, I hear her show begin, which is my signal to begin worshiping her orally. She shifts her position occassionally to give me access to both her front and rear areas to worship with my tongue. Mistress loves to enjoy both her show and being worshiped simulaneously...It is her favorite thing and something I adore being able to help her achieve.By the time the first commercial comes on, I have another erection. She leans down...and again pumps me to another orgasm...catching the product in the glass as before. She readjusts the nipple clamps once again quickly as her show replaces the commercials.For the next 45 minutes, the pattern continues. My tongue worshiping her, her forcing an orgasm each commercial break, the adjusting and readjusting of the clamps on my nipples. Mistress often has many orgasms over the course of the episode on the screen. She directs me to speed up...slow down...and shifts herself so she is getting exactly the sensations she wants and needs to be satisfied.As her show concludes, she rises off of me goes to the kitchen with the wine glass of cum and returns with it half full of wine. She again sits on my stomach and pours the mixture into my mouth, which I let pour down my throat. She reaches into the bag one last time and takes out a dice. "What are we going to do now I wonder?" she speaks...and rolls the dice.Her dice game is as follows: (1= I clean up, get dressed and leave) (2= she unties me and on all fours she paddles my ass until its red and slightly bruised) (3 or 4= she places a vibrator inside me and tortures my now sensitive nipples with biting and pinching until she is satisfied) (5= she unties me and uses her strapon on me while I'm on all fours) (6= she leaves me tied to the sofa on my back and fucks me with her strapon until I cry)After whichever activity the dice dictates, I clean up...dress myself...and exit. "Your a good little bitch my pet...see you next Monday...and don't be surprised if I ask 1 or 2 friends to come over and join us"

A day on CollarMe

Just gonna share my experience the last 5 hours.

• Not sure how or when...but it's so funny how someone would think a total stranger would send $ to someone's paypal account just for the right to email back and forth...go figure.
• There are soooooo many creepo's...that a sincere sub has almost no chance of being taken seriously. The odd's are astronomical.
• So many people ignor sincere gestures of friendship...come on...take a little chance.
• As much as I hate to admit it...breasts are nearly impossible to deny.
• I'm very, very ready to massage someone's feet and make them smile...and can't find anyone who wants to be pampered :-(
• I get creeped out in video chat pretty quick...lottsa wierdo's

Status Update

It's been a very long time, but I see there are still many visitors here, so wished to post a brief update. I'm currently uncollared, and no longer being considered or trained by anyone.
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The submissive nature inside me is crashing into my thoughts like waves in a storm lashing at the beach...taking parts of me back into the vast ocean.
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I so very much greatly desire to find someone to submit to...learn from...share with...grow with...suffer for...ease the "lonely" with strength, confidence, understanding, and purpose.
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Please don't be shy to comment or drop me a note if you are interested, especially if you are local to the Chicago area.

What's up with my Penis...I'll tell you

So I have to tell you about my meeting with Ma'am earlier this week. I had been worshiping Ma'am's feet, legs and pussy, when she told me to go in the dresser and get a condom. Keep in mind it had been 16 days since my last orgasm, and I really didn't know what she had in mind...but I knew whatever it was I totally feared an "accident". She helped me get my hardest and then told me to put on the condom...and then put my cock in her pussy. We were on her leather couch and it was humid...and I'm very tall, so it was awkward and sticky and I did my best to get in a position to do as she asked. She grabbed my cock and pulled it closer...and I came so close to cumming just from her touch...my mind went blank and I almost passed out as I fought it off. I don't know how I didn't cum...but it subsided. She said move to the bedroom.

She laid down on the bed and positioned me over her in a missionary position, my erect penis pointing straight out and down. Very, very slowly, and more gently than before...she eased it right up to her clitoris, and slowly rubbed the tip up and down...then slowly into her pussy just a bit and again...up and down. The sensation was mindblowing (I haven't been with anyone that way in many years). As she did this, she told me to think of my penis as my tongue...and she trained me how she wanted me to use my tongue on her...by using the tip of my penis as a example. To say it was like hell...like holding back niagra falls...would be an understatement, as I was pulsing and throbbing...doing absolutely nothing besides concentrating on holding back an orgasm...one that I desparately wanted I might add. Then...deep inside very slowly...without any fucking motion at all...just sinking deep inside...and feeling her muscles clench down and relax. Every little movement an adventure in orgasm prevention. When she was satisfied she had me pull out and go back to worshiping her pussy...making special notice to let me know that my cock had just been there, that I was a slut...that my cock had just stretched her out and made her wet so I could eat her better. She had some minor orgasms I believe and was feeling good...when she rolled over onto all fours and had me stick my tongue in her ass and worship her there...fucking her hole with my tongue...and then...I heard the vibrator go to work on her pussy. Fantasy fulfillment #1: ass worship during vibrator play. It was so hot to feel her quaking and convulsing with my tongue in her ass as she brought herself to at least 2 powerful orgasms. I felt so used...so useful...like a pleasure device...like the vibrator and me were...twins...both working for the same objective...her pleasure.

As things calmed down...I was released and went home...having not had an orgasm again...in pain from my swollen balls...the taste of her ass and a condom on my tongue...sort of proud I had not had an accident...all submissive since I had pleased her as she wished...and wondering how much she loved the fact that she just had more orgasms and my days without continued to grow.

When Porn serves a Purpose: My assignment

It's been over 15 days since my last orgasm and I can get hard just closing my eyes. I can feel a mindblowing explosion pulsing in my cock...a gallon of cum waiting to be harvested and eaten. I told Ma'am 2 days ago that I had made the mistake of watching some porn and making my wait even more painful. She enjoyed the thought of me torturing myself by watching porn and not having release...so she instructed me to watch a bunch more this weekend while she was away. Well, I did...a lot! The porn that really "trips my trigger" is lesbian bdsm, smothering, cuckolding, and strapon...and I spent a total of 6 hours endulging my eyes the last 2 days. I'm sure Ma'am will love the fact that I am panting for an orgasm as I sit her typing. I'm emailing her a list of links to the things that I've seen...both as proof that I followed orders...and for her enjoyment. Here are the ones that drove me crazy:
http://www.tube8.com/hardcore/tough-lesbian-bdsm-action/146903/
http://www.xhamster.com/movies/153443/strapon.html
http://www.xhamster.com/movies/161730/lesbian_anal_teacher.html
http://www.xhamster.com/movies/102579/domination_by_women_bmw.html
http://www.xhamster.com/movies/71259/abuse_her_man.html
http://www.tube8.com/hardcore/ariel-x-humiliated-by-a-gang-of-bad-girls/137443/
http://www.tube8.com/fetish/girls-fuck-man-in-the-ass/54866/
http://www.tube8.com/fetish/men-in-pain-/9085/
http://www.tube8.com/hardcore/naked-wrestling-strapon-fucking-/107869/
http://ads.tsseduction.com/imagedb/6291/v/h/320/hires/6291_7.wmv
http://ads.tsseduction.com/imagedb/6481/v/h/320/hires/6481_7.wmv
http://ads.wiredpussy.com/imagedb/6592/v/h/320/hires/6592_7.wmv
http://ads.wiredpussy.com/imagedb/6422/v/h/320/hires/6422_7.wmv
http://ads.whippedass.com/imagedb/6701/v/h/320/hires/6701_7.wmv
http://www.tube8.com/hardcore/servant-dia-punished-by-maitresse-madeline/149087/
Not sure if it's okay to post links like this...but it is a fine way to show you readers what flips me inside out when watching porn. I so wish I was one of the participants in most of these. I had some free time yesterday and the idea of visiting a Gentlemen's club to torture myself even more crossed my mind. I know if would have been torture in my current state, and almost went...but thought better as I would definitely want her permission to do this, and she was not here to give her consent...so I didn't. I think someday it would be fun and erotic to go to a strip club with her...either male or female...and go with the scene whereever it might go....